Why am I blogging at 2:05 pm?

I feel like crap, that's why. I'm laying on my bed and blogging because no one's on Facebook yet. It sucks to be sick. I'll probably be at school tomorrow. I miss Nick :'( he hasn't e'd or IMed me... I guess because he thinks I'm sleeping. (sweetest bf ever!) but I miss talking to him. Hell, I'd love to talk to anybody. Being sick is so borrrring!!! So that's why I'm blogging so early. Trust me, I've tried, you can't get to screamitloud-rachael from the library. I feel like dancing but every time I get up I feel like puking. On the plus side, I've lost some weight (and you didn't think that was possible! HA!) and I have a reason for sucking at flute tomorrow. God, my teacher is so... strict! It's hard.
I never though I'd say that about playing a flute. Well, I guess that's how you learn. By being taught and challenged. I'm a little stressed about festival which is in about 2 weeks =O and none of us are ready. Well, what can I say? It's been a nice two days of much needed r+r, but I have to get back to the real world. *sigh* whatever. I'm sleepy...

*smile* *smile* *smile* *smile*

Why am I smiling so much? Because I'm so happy!!! I love the weekend I love the sky I love the trees and I love the dead grass! But most of all I love my new boyfriend.
Yup, you read that right.
Guess who it is? I'll give you a hint: blonde hair, ever-changing eyes, sometimes blue, sometimes hazel, a dog named Jack and a very old cat, one of my very best friends. If you didn't already guess (or know) then yes, it is Nick. God, I wish I had some pictures of him! He's gorgeous- well I can't talk, I guess, being his *girlfriend!* He's so freaking amazing. I could talk to him for hours and IM him all day long. Sadly Science has to end... but I think we'll be seeing a lot more of each other, which seriously brightens up my day. This song is me:
Miss Independant-Kelly Clarkson
(Verse 1)
Miss independent
Miss self-sufficient
Miss keep your distance, mmmm
Miss unafraid
Miss out of my way
Miss don't let a man interfere, no
Miss on her own
Miss almost grown
Miss never let a man help her off her throne
So, by keeping her heart protected
She'll never, ever feel rejected
Little miss apprehensive
Said ooh, she fell in love
(Chorus)
What is this feeling taking over?
Thinking no one could open the door
Surprise, it's time, to feel what's real
What happened to miss independent's no longer need to be defensive?
Goodbye, old you, when love, is true
(Verse 2) Misguided heart
Miss play it smart
Miss if you wanna use that line, you better not start, no
But she miscalculated
She didn't wanna end up jaded
And this miss decided not to miss out on true love
So, by changing a misconception
She went in a new direction
And found inside, she felt a connection
She fell in love
(Chorus)
What is this feeling taking over?
Thinking no one could open the door
Surprise, it's time, to feel what's real
What happened to miss independent's no longer need to be defensive?
Goodbye, old you, when love, is true (when love, is true)
(Bridge) When miss independent walked away
No time for love that came her way
She looked in the mirror and thought today
What happened to miss no longer afraid?
It took some time for her to see
How beautiful love could truly be
No more talk of why can't that be me
I'm so glad I've finally seen
(Chorus)
What is this feeling taking over?
Thinking no one could open the door
Surprise, it's time, to feel what's real
What happened to miss independent's no longer need to be defensive?
Goodbye, old you, when love, is true (when love, is true)
Miss independent
This song is Nick: It's my life by Bon Jovi
This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud
Chorus: It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life
This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks
Chorus:
It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive '
Cause it's my life
Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down
Chorus:
It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
Chorus:
It's my life And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive (It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!
And I got in the way of that. He really chills out when he's around me though. And just in case I havn't bored you enough with lyrics, here's the song that describes *us* (for me, anyway):
You- Evanescence
The words have been drained from this pencil
Sweet words that I want to give you
And I can't sleep
I need to tell you
Goodnight
When we're together, I feel perfect
When I'm pulled away from you, I fall apart
All you say is sacred to me
Your eyes are so blue I can't look away
As we lay in the stillness
You whisper to me
Amy, marry me
Promise you'll stay with me
Oh you don't have to ask me
You know you're all that I live for
You know I'd die just to hold you
Stay with you
Somehow I'll show you
That you are my night sky
I've always been right behind you
Now I'll always be right beside you
So many nights I cried myself to sleep
Now that you love me, I love myself
I never thought I would say this
I never thought there'd be
You
My personal favorite out of all the Evanescence songs. It's beautiful, it's deep, it's sweet, and it almost made me cry. I feel the same way- and I hope he does too.