why is love so hard!?

Okay, so I'm in love with this guy. He's my best friend, and he has been since fifth grade. He plays trombone, I play flute. To most of you this isn't really a big deal, but WMS prides itself at having the best music program in the county. So music is a really big deal to all of us here. We're practically heroes for carrying an instrument case. Anyway, so I keep telling myself, "Ask him out today. Ask him out today. Rachael! Ask him out already! You've only liked him since forever!" But for some reason I look into his eyes and I forget everything. It's like an aphrodisiac pain killer that makes my heart race. Girls (and guys) I TOTALLY get how you feel when the guy you like doesn't even notice you. For me, its that he talks to me every day, leaning across his desk so he can smile and look into my eyes. But I'm just not sure I could survive a breakup with him. He's saved my sanity a zillion times yet driving me mad with his inexplicable beauty and flawless persona. Oh the irony. So, if anyone has some advice- seriously, I even tried the bend and snap move, nothing!- please tell me.And tell me if he likes me or not. Because here are some things he does whenever were talking:

• He laughs at all my jokes, even the bad ones.
• He stares into my eyes and smiles.
  
• He says hi to me all the time, whenever he sees me, in the hallways, while he doesn't to his other friends.
  
• He took band this year because I told him that no matter what I was taking band.
  
• He learned how to play the trombone after I told him that I could play the flute.
  
• He talks to me at lunch even when I'm really stressed out, and he always calls me whenever something sad, frustrating or stressful happens to him.
• When we went on the fifth grade camping trip, he said that he would have chose me to share his cabin if different sexes could share the same one
• He's alwats there fore me and listens, and provides me with awesome advice even when it's about some guy looking down my shirt (not exactly familiar territory for a guy)

• Seems sort of... jealous whenever I'm talking about a hot date I had last night.

So, yeah. Help is greatly appreciated.

Pet food recall

I know this was a long time ago, but I saw a video on YouTube about it-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yxZUJlfWJ1k- and it made me cry. I have a cat- her name is Katie, and I love her more than anything. So as I was watching it, the very last part of it, about a cat named Mao who was put to sleep because of kidney failure from the recalled cat foods. It was about her last day with her loving owner. Her owner said, "I love you. I love you sweetie pea." And though I tried really hard not to cry for all the other parts, that last part was waht made me bawl.
So after it's over and I'm trying to mop up may face, I walk upstairs, drying my eyes. I have a picture of Katie on my dresser, and she is the most beautiful cat. She has soft gray black and white fur with soft green eyes. You can see that she loves everyone around her because when I get home from shool and sit on the sofa, she walks on me, puts her paws om my chest, meows and purrs. Sometimes this gets annoying- in the best way possible- but when I was up in my room I really thought about how much I love my Katie. If she was dying, I'd refuse to got to school and just spend the entire time with her. She's like a sister to me. So, take this into consideration, watch the video, and it isn't me, btw. I'm blond and younger. But she really is funny, and this is one of her few serious ones. Hug your pets, never take them for granted, take good care of them. They can't take care of themselves, you know. and if there's a nuclear Armageddon, only cockroaches and cats will survive. Food for thought, and randomness for desert.
;) Rachael =p