Field of Innocence

"Field Of Innocence"

I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now

Where has my heart gone
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh I... I want to go back to
Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all

I still remember the sun
Always warm on my back
Somehow it seems colder now

Where has my heart gone
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh I... I want to go back to
Believing in everything

[Latin hymn:]
Iesu, Rex admirabilis
Et triumphator nobilis,
Dulcedo ineffabilis,
Totus desiderabilis.

Where has my heart gone
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh I... I want to go back to
Believing in everything
Oh, Where

Where has my heart gone
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh I... I want to go back to
Believing in everything

I still remember.

-by Evanescence

This is so true- I miss being young, seeing everything as innocence, everything simple, love not yet discovered, yet believing in all those stupid fairy tales... then growing up, facing my fears, seeing all I thought I knew die in front of my eyes. Now I realize that I knew absolutely nothing. I don't want to live in the real world... I miss living in my fantasies, while shadows danced across my mind... little did I know that the sun was a lie and the shadows I never looked at were the harsh truth, and no one would listen to me but I didn't care then. Listening to everything my parents said, believing every word.

Now I know it was all a lie, and I cry myself to sleep.

The sun is like an endless freezer, not the warmth I used to know. It seems so cold...

I still remember not having a care in the world, not having to be in love, never having to do anything.

I will never forget that. I can't run from the truth anymore. I fell, and it overtook me.

I wish I could be six again.

I'm done with lying, and I'm sorry for hurting everyone I love with my overpowering mania to lie.

No more. Never again. I will never lie gain.